2021.10.19 05:11 throwaway_gammaray Alcohol is awesome
Ok. I’m (18M) not an alcoholic, but Im worried about becoming one someday. I’ve felt completely emotionally numb for about 8 months or so now with some depressive episodes in between but dude alc makes me feel and ik that isnt healthy at all and im extremely worried. My dad is a functioning alcoholic, he wouldnt admit it and my mom is aware but she doesnt seem to do anythinf about it. Sorry if im rambling im hammered. Anyways completely emotionally numb all i can feel is pits in my stomach when i have anxiety, I cant even figure out if i really love my girlfriend ive had for over a year bc i dont even know what love feels like anymore. I felt excitement for the first time in months when I did super well in an interview, and it lasted about 30 mins but went away soon after and I remember my mood dissipating from extreme happiness to pure emptiness almost instantly. i have had tinnitus for 8 months which has worsened in the last 24 hours and its been a real pain in the dick. I’m afraid to seek therapy bc i dont know if i even deserve it. I’m not sure if im even depressed, my brother and father are both diagnosed and medicated. I dont know if the thoughts ive had even count as suicidal; I never picture myself killing myself, but have always seen it as a backup plan if “things dont work out” if im “not happy” or “unsuccessful.” I have no idea what i want to do with my life, I currently run a very successful business and make a shitload of money in the summer but genuinely fell like i dont deserve what i earn and am constantly concerned and anxious that I am going to be caught in the act of being an incompetent and undeserving entrepreneur despite receiving basically only positive comments from clients (Impostor syndrome! Nice). Anyways tonight I reached for the claws bc my tinnitus was worse than it usually is, defo isnt the first time ive done this but it does help. I wish it didnt. Sorry for writing such a mess on here, i just feel like i dont have anyone else to tell and ive been bottling this up for a while
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2021.10.19 05:11 ganjapremi Sainz my driver
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2021.10.19 05:11 Naughtiestdingo Do I spend too much time on this subreddit, or do the SMS messages from TAFE (it stands for Tertiary And Further Education and is definitely legit) sound like scams?
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2021.10.19 05:11 GratefulToBeGold Gold Star Over Ghana
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2021.10.19 05:11 mczmczmcz Any good books on urban ecology?
2021.10.19 05:11 Honeydew-Capital It hurts
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2021.10.19 05:11 Codeskater First milestone down!
2021.10.19 05:11 Hot_Thing9194 The San Fernando valley on Porta 400 shot with a Canon AE-1
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2021.10.19 05:11 MrVeeSus What do you think is a useless talent but its actually cool?
2021.10.19 05:11 Yellowrosestems Mask selfie (20F)
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2021.10.19 05:11 Unhappy_Caregiver_81 That is not dead which can eternal lie, And with strange aeons even death may die.
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2021.10.19 05:11 poli8999 Just discovered the show….
2021.10.19 05:11 Thillidan Chapter Tactics! What do we think?
So with the release of Black Templar rules (all be it only in the templar box itself) what rules does everyone plan to use for their Sons if the Phoenix?
And maybe Why in the comments. Love to see what people run as their main force too. Example, you may know I focus heavily on Bladeguard. planning to run the Bladeguard sergeant with all the Templar upgrades. With a Chaplain focus too.
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2021.10.19 05:11 Pickle_Juice54 What is the difference between a squish and a crush?
I've only ever felt a romantic attraction to my friends before, but none have ever lasted more than three months maybe four at the max. Do these qualify as a "squish" or "crush"?
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2021.10.19 05:11 ValarkStudio Meme chilango
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2021.10.19 05:11 TheAmishPlow [USA-TX] [H] Ryzen 7 1700x [W] PayPal
I have a used working Ryzen 1700x for sale. Used it for all kinds of fun stuff like gaming, video editing, tinkering with mining, overclocking etc. I bought it new and never had any issues with it. It sat mostly unused for the last year. I fired it up to run some tests and then just recently upgraded to a 3700x I got here.
$100 shipped conus
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2021.10.19 05:11 nolimit_devon The new addition to my collection. Not the most valuable but still a beautiful piece!
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2021.10.19 05:11 igorrstravinsky Is B, D, and A correct?
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2021.10.19 05:11 LEOMITEplays Let's talk this talk... again.
So let's talk about this topic but with a more pin pointed view. When it comes to tanking.. let's say.. Argonian, DK build with weapon bar 1 being the obvious One-hand & Shield. However, question / discussion is.. weapon bar 2 being destruction staff leading to a more mag build or a two-handed weapon leading to a more stamina build?? Let's discuss this.
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2021.10.19 05:11 enz0ng Recurring Threads
Here's a quick overview of our recurring threads, suggested and developed through discussion among our amazing members. There is always room for adjustment and improvement, so let us know if anything could be added, modified, or restructured. We snark because we care! 😂
2021.10.19 05:11 Unable-Championship4 Pretty sure that’s not where the time is supposed to be
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2021.10.19 05:11 dimeweld Question about OWC points:
Why am I only getting 2-3 points when I’m KOing people? How can I get more ranked points? I know if you use an unranked fighter you get more points. But my opponents have been going high ranking fighters or CAFs. I went on a 5 fight win streak and gained about 20 points. Lost once and went down more than thirty. Also, as soon as guys get KO’d they quit and I have no idea how much I gained or lost.
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2021.10.19 05:11 anonymois1111111 I’m so disappointed in so many people I know. They act like cancer is fixed with a pill or something.
I’m so disappointed in many of my close friends and my sibling. They act like I will take the right pill and be perfectly fine again. I even sent one a photo of my arm before getting my first immunotherapy (which we hope will work) and nothing back. That was over 4 days ago. Very disappointed in him.
The worst is my brother. I wrote everyone the same thing on Friday and got one sentence from him and nothing since. But he’s still out there pretending to care to my mom. Thanks for the stress jerk. His girlfriend is the same. I listened to her dog being sick for weeks and tried to help and she writes me nothing. I don’t even know if I feel angry or just disappointed/disgusted at this point. Nah. Scratch that. I’m ANGRY. Why do I bother with these people.
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2021.10.19 05:11 DETROITSHIT313 What would you do if you were the last person on Earth?
2021.10.19 05:11 No-Ladder4467 Im not sure what i have left after my break up
It was an agreeable break up we both knew it had to happen but after over4 years of dating my whole life revolved around her, and i have few friends to speak of, a job i dont care much for and a non existent social life. Its hard to tell myself that life is on the up from here
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