my note of intent... Ronaldo doesn't do this shit...

2021.09.22 00:48 LiquidLenin my note of intent... Ronaldo doesn't do this shit...

long time lurker (other account), first time poster....
Don't even know where to start, but I'm sick of this addiction, and what it makes me, what it makes me feel.
I've been watching weirder and weirder stuff over the years. Stupid OnlyFans stuff since the pandemic when social life was pretty much gone over lockdown... got into online dom stuff, spent money on them (not enough to put in trouble, but enough to feel pretty fucking stupid). I've been wasting time, been hitting the gym and trying to get back in shape last year but can't help but feel I'm holding myself back with the almost daily relapse. Its training with a hand tied behind my back. I'll go a few days and then the worst time is in the morning when you get fierce urges. Its like a trance. I know I don't want to do it, but fuck its done and over and I feel ashamed and angry with myself each time.
Had some good streaks over the summer, two 10 day ones... can't really recall why I let it go if I'm honest, think it was a moment of boredom both times and then back in the cycle...
Well no more. I look at all my heroes and people I admire. Ronaldo doesn't fucking jerk off.
I look at people from school getting married, having kids. I'm 29 and can't help but feel I've squandered my 20s.
I've been with girls, not as many as I would like, but last few years before Covid I could never finish. I know its cos of porn and the weirder and weirder stuff I've started watching. I hope I get to a point I forget I ever watched that stuff. You watch them, all raging to go, and then when its over, you think to yourself -

"that was fucking disgusting".
That disgust, that's me.... I know it is. Not the hypnotised addict I was looking up all sorts of dommes at all hours.
Well no more, it will take time to set things right, I'm basically resetting the foundations of my metaphorical house here, over ten years building shoddily and in the wrong places. Well I'm not wasting time thinking about that, I'm thinking about what life can be like when I'm in control and not my urges. I would love some NoFap superpowers that the SR sub mentions and all, but I'm trying not to look at it for that.... I just want to be a real man and not a slave to some pixels and phony predator women online. Hardest part will be seeing some of these pornstars and dommes on social media that I "loved". Can only block them and anything that gets through use it as motivation for me being my best self.
I've read so many posts here, found myself agreeing with almost all of them, realising the value of the advice or experience passed.... why the fuck have I left it so long to cut this crap out! To any younger people, don't waste your 20s like I have. Don't get me wrong I had some wild times, but I feel like Schindler... I could have gotten more, and I will never forgive myself for holding myself back so much...
This is my note of intent to myself that this is the fucking last time. I know my 30s are going to be fucking awesome once I conquer this addiction. I know this cos I still remember the glimpses of being a real man, before I let porn and become a bigger and bigger part of my life.
Well thanks for reading. This sub will be a great comfort in the coming dark nights. I am determined, but I know I've fallen before... those moments when you know you don't want to but it happens anyway. No fucking more.... ...I know I want to see the other side of this addiction because I wanna be stronger than I was the day before.
Stay Strong boys.
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2021.09.22 00:48 dhavalmalvania #shorts Don't average into losers, take the loss when its still small | ...

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2021.09.22 00:48 svanapps r/CryptoCurrency - Reasons on why we're still early.

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2021.09.22 00:48 EmergencyGuilty The Underground was sealed like a Dark Fountain

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2021.09.22 00:48 banana_rama_666 Replacement pump?

So back at it again with a dumb question. Can i swap out the pump on my machine for one with a higher gpm? I have the simpson 4000psi and 3.5 gpm machine it has a honda engine. Was just wondering if it would be possible for me to replace the pump with one that's still 4000psi but say 5gpm instead.
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2021.09.22 00:48 prawnbiryani 💗☁🍦🌸🧁🤍🦩

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2021.09.22 00:48 Cunts_and_more Freedom rallies

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2021.09.22 00:48 bongoissomewhatnifty Why I'm transferring all of my shares to DRS

The latest round of FUD/BS/Misinformation going on are people discussing Computershare and how many shares to transfer over.
The FUD/bs relates to two specific things, and the general argument that promotes it is: Computershare should be used for infinity pool only shares. This is a bad idea and likely purpose built shillery for two reasons.
To start with, it's a pretty fucking clear attempt to weaken an effort in a way that only benefits SHF's. Who benefits by having fewer shares transferred to CS? SHF's do. Do Apes? Nope. You can sell CS shares for any price you want. Want 500 billion per share? No problem, you can wait till the price is that and start selling incremental shares. That right there should be enough to raise some alarm bells as to why people are pushing CS as infinity pool only. Traditional brokerages are slightly more convenient. That is the only advantage they offer.
If everybody that can only transfers 50%... Are there actually enough shares to max out the company through DRS? The float? Maybe. Maybe not. We have no idea. We only have educated guesses that retail owns way more than the float. Until Computershare says "Hey, we talked to GameStop, and it turns out that every single share that has been issued by GameStop has been accounted for and direct registered, we're no longer taking transfers," every single share transfer counts.
By only transferring some shares, you are in effect deciding to pull punches and not putting 100% effort into getting the appropriate value for your shares. It's like being in a slap fight with the Russian world slapping champion, and he's just thrown everything he has at you, and you're still standing, and he's exhausted and on the ropes, and it's your turn to you only put 50% of your power in because somebody on the internet said it was a good idea.
Not only that, traditional brokerages come with a whole host of liabilities. You absolutely can get fucked by them. These can be things like "loaning your shares out when they're not supposed to" (something that Fidelity just agreed to take responsibility for doing IN 2021, although we don't know which stocks). They can also just be used as locates for what will become FTD's.
Every piece of DD that's come out in the past 9 months has basically boiled down to "the system is totally fucking corrupt, and every major player specifically is corrupt and working together to fuck retail"
Which brings us to the biggest reason that if able, you should transfer your shares to CS.
If January is anything to go by, brokerages are pretty okay with throwing you under the bus to save their own skin. Robinhood felt the pain on Thursday when the price jumped by $200 and started rapidly approaching $500. But they weren't the only ones! Lot's of other brokerages were feeling it pretty hard then too. So how exactly did they respond? By doing all sorts of shady shit of course. I saw quite a few "Robinhood closed out my shares after they turned off the buy button and I couldn't buy back in!" posts. I saw any number people complaining that their options positions get closed out.
What happens if it squeezes and the bigger brokerages start feeling the pain at $1000? $2000? What happens if/when they turn off the buy button again and start closing out positions? What if they just give you your cost basis back? You'd have a leg to stand on in a lawsuit of course, but do you really want to spend the next 10 years fighting a lawsuit trying to reclaim your money that you know you're going to get shafted on and get nowhere near the real value of your shares? I don't.
Because, if everything goes as suspected, here's what's going to happen: First a few hedge funds are going to go under. Than the market makers are going to start feeling the pressure and a few will fold. At that point, the prime brokers and DTCC are going to start feeling the pressure. At a certain point, it lands on the brokers shoulders to find you those shares at any price. You think they'll let it get to that point? I don't think Fidelity is going to be cool with finding shares for me at $10,000 a pop, let alone $50,000,000.
And frankly, I don't want to make them. It's not a conversation I want ever to come up.
I'd rather nip that one in the bud. Take the problem out of their hands, register them directly to myself, so that *nobody* can sell them but me, and not have to risk somebody going and fucking me by "accidentally selling, and also you can't re-buy."
Absolute best case scenario: The brokerages do what computershare does and you can sell your brokerage shares at any price. But after the sheer amount of rule breaking corruption and fuckery I've seen, I sure as shit don't feel safe betting my GME shares on that. There is no gain to be had that way, it's only a needless risk.
So when deciding how many shares to transfer over, remember: If the overarching hypothesis is correct, your broker will start feeling the pain at some point. Nobody knows what price point that will be, and it will probably vary by broker, but sooner or later, they'll feel the pain. Once they do, they'll start pulling shady shit to fuck you. It happened before, and it will happen again.
The only safe share is a DRS through Computershare. Every other share is at risk.
Keep your shares where they are. Or move them. Do your own thing, make your own decisions. This isn't a call to action. It's merely a reminder that Robinhood fucked people in January, and if you think your broker won't fuck you too when they feel a similar pain, you're delusional. Understand that any share that isn't DRS'd has a high likelihood to get closed out for you without your consent at a price lower than what you'd like, and you'll probably be shit out of luck on ever getting the money you deserve for it.
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2021.09.22 00:48 RagdollPenguin As a person who melee( or at least mostly) in every battlefield game, a list of the worst to best (only going down to battlefield 3 )

5: battlefield 4. The only reason this is last is because you only have knives and the stupid counter thing from a front takedown.
4: battlefield 5. While now having a large variety of melee, the melee is slow as ass and doesn’t one hit and you are forced to do a long animation when landing a killing blow no matter the angle. Which would lead you to getting killed in any group scenario. But, it did have the katana which I hope somehow makes it into 2042 as a loadout weapon or something.
3: battlefield 1. Same thing as battlefield 5 but faster melee animations.(not takedowns)
2: battlefield 3. Now the weapons are only knives but you could do a takedown from any direction that wasnt 8 hours long.
1: battlefield hardline. This is one of the things the game did amazingly on. With more than just knives, you had different types of melee that worked differently. You could get a heavy melee that would have more range and one shot, or a knife that was fast and did little damage. And the best part is that you could only get takedowns from the sides. If you did a killing blow with melee from the front, it would just kill them.
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2021.09.22 00:48 SixteenTimesTheTodd Praise Todd Howard

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2021.09.22 00:48 Mticore Seán Cullen - You’ve Got a Friend in Porn

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2021.09.22 00:48 panicclub_ Is it normal to start getting over-sedated after stabilizing at a dose?

I’ve been tapering for about a year, from 16mg to .5mg currently. I’ve been on .5mg for about a month now and lately I’ve been so exhausted during the day. Because I abused benzos for a long time, my memory isn’t great lol so I don’t remember if this has happened every time I dose down but I feel like I’m more sedated than I’ve been in a long time.
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2021.09.22 00:48 No_Breakfast_666 How trustworthy is Yuri Deigin

I enjoyed the episode with him on but he's done a couple of things to make me suspicious recently.

  1. He posted a junk paper which claimed that ivermectin caused infertility in men
  1. He's being really incautious about the lab leak "proof".
Curious what others think.
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2021.09.22 00:48 The7777s Trade Alert

nuggets sent Kyrie back to Cleveland along with John Wall for Collin Sexton, Jarrett Allen, 3 future firsts, 3 future seconds
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2021.09.22 00:48 SixteenTimesTheTodd Praise Todd Howard

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I load in to my friends save and to the entrance of our base there is a indestructible foundation piece that I can't get through but my friend can't see it and on my screen when he walks through it it looks like he's just fazing through the foundation. Can anyone help
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